i just got back from my vacation to myrtle beach. it was nice i suppose. however, going back to work was not really something i was ready for, but i can deal. im not sure what is in store for me next. but i definitely predict some troubles ahead. not at all something im looking forward to. its not gonna turn out well at all, but i figure that this is the best time to go through with it, given my options. and it has to be done. im sorry im so vague, but there is a good reason for this, trust me. i feel like a man standing on the edge of his own oblivion, about to take the next step. he doesnt know whats gonna happen, just that its not gonna be good.i didnt know it would have to be so soon. i wish it weren't. but thats what everyone thinks when they have to face their own impending doom. its inevitable that i will fail, but its not really about that. i always knew i would, but the point is that if i dont do this, then all i am is a failure. now, at least i can say i tried