sparktheshadow

lets fucking do something with our lives. this is the most boring generation of people ever. nothing is going on. well, there is that dinky little pointless war going on or whatever. every day you should ask yourself "what do i want to be remembered for?" working a fucking useless computer data job just to get a bit of money so you can buy a thing to sit on or some tool or gadget that you bought from an infomercial at 3 in the morning? you go to school for 15 years and you whine about nothing through most of it then you have a shit job doing nothing and you go out to some building where people gather together to poison themselves for entertai

Well, being stuck out here in nowhere is not a good as it might seem. it gets lonely, but at least i have time to focus on the projects i am working on. im done writing my film, and its only a matter of time before i hold auditions and begin production. its just a wee little film, but i think people will enjoy it. it should be out by may. theres a lot more that lies on the horizon, and determination remains essential.

here i am, lying dead in  the gutter of your psyche. at least im still with you, if not part of you. so what more could i ask of you? i tried, i failed and now im nothing. thank you for the last five years. had i known they would be fruitless, i would never have bothered. yet in some weird way, im glad i did. maybe someday you'll realize whats best for you, but until then i'll wait. forever yours